I took the photo of the fish while tripping on shrooms for the first time. They didn’t look like that through my eyes, haha.
Didn’t even get an oz pumping this morning. Discouraging. Tried everything in the book to increase my supply but nothing seems to be working. I think the nipple flanges (??) are too small for me. Curse these big nipples of mine. I need to order a bigger size sometime soon and maybe that’ll move things along? I don’t know. If that doesn’t work I’m out of ideas. Breast milk is best milk but I have no qualms with formula feeding so theres no sense in trying to continue on with something that just stresses me out 24/7. At least I tried.
I’m going to LA for a few days on the 7th. My dad bought me a ticket as a bday present. I wish the airport wasn’t two hours away because I’m stuck taking greyhound lol. Oh well! I’ve made the trip before and its not that bad. I just hope I can find my iPod before I go. No idea what I did with it. Since Im bringing Lily along maybe no one will try talking to me. Ah that’d be nice. Traveling this way with a baby seems like a hassle btw and I hope she doesnt end up being the designated annoying baby that cries the whole trip. Because there always is. :(
Frustrated because no matter how hard I try I just don’t understand math. When I was in middle school my parents went through a custody battle and it got to the point where I was between schools and missed out on a lot. Once I was enrolled back into my original school I completely missed out on prealgebra and it was all down hill from there. Any who from then on math was a struggle and I’m terrible at anything beyond the basics. There’s no way I’ll be able to do the college assessment test :( My brother is brilliant with the stuff and I wish I could ask him to help me but I already know he’ll say no.
going to sneak into the shower. pls for the love of god lily do not wake up the moment i start soapin up. i swear she knows when i’m in there and does it to f with me lol.
Man I havent called my dad back in days because I’m so annoyed with how he keeps telling me to quit breastfeeding. “Pick one” blah blah blah. Love him but that conversation is always so stressful and I don’t know why he’s so adamant about it. That and moving in with my aunt in Las Vegas. No way no how love her too but she lost both her kids due to child abuse as if I want Lily in a house like that.